Most of y’all may not know, but I’ve been changing myself lately. Physically, I mean, and a lot more than my recent tendency of dying my hair blue.
For almost a year now, I’ve been using Invisalign to fix my teeth, and tomorrow I go under the knife for a Gastric Sleeve surgery.
To be completely honest, I’m a bit scared. I know it’s considered a trivial procedure, very low risk, but it’s not nothing.
I’ve tried losing weight for years — both for self-image reasons, but also health. I have two kids, I’d like to do everything I can to make sure I’m around to see them both grow up.
So now, I’ve been on a liquid diet consisting of less than 1,000 calories per day for the last week, and that’s about to get cut down to practically nothing for a few days as I recover from surgery. And then I’ll make my way back to food.
The confusing bit is I’m not really hungry. I don’t know. Maybe I’m not good at listening to my body’s hunger cues. Or maybe protein shakes are magical and really do keep you full.
Tomorrow I go in for surgery, and then I’ll get to miss gorging myself at holiday dinners this year. But egg nog is okay on a liquid diet, right?
Hopefully, as time passes, I’ll become myself again. Emotionally and physically.